The week we found out we're pregnant

Since 2015, my partner and I have discussed plans of starting our own family. Honestly as a woman in my 30's, I was a bit pressured that I might not be able to conceive. I even had a half-meant joke "hinde na makakaantay egg cells ko" and of course there was my fear that I won't be able to bear my own child.

This 2016, since I moved in with my partner we've been constantly trying. He was working in a call center so our schedule and offs felt like we're living in the same house but different timezones. It's really challenging but then on my part I felt we shouldn't be panicking yet if we can't have a baby in our first year living together.

I made some research and took advice from friends,  I even looked for a specialist for reproductive health & infertility but when I was planning to visit the doctor, things got crazy with my personal life that I had to cancel my plans in visiting my doctor.

Then came the last week of September and my period was due. Normally, I would feel bloated along with back pains and a brown spotting but the day when I was supposed to have my 1st day, I didn't have it.

Deep inside I was praying "Sana po eto na" then I started researching what brand of pregnancy test I should use and when is the best day to test just to be. I've tested 3 times, yes 3 times because I'm that paranoid.

*Blue Cross*
I first stumbled upon Blue Cross Pregnancy Strip,it just costs 75 pesos. To use it, you just use the container that comes along with the package to catch your first morning urine and dip the strip. After seeing the result, I cried. I cried because I only saw 1 line but felt like I'm seeing 2 lines but the line is barely visible. I was thinking that my desire to have a child is too strong that I'm already imagining things. With my heart feeling defeated, I stared at the strip again and throw it in the trash bin.

*Medic*
After my PT that day, I still didn't have my period. This gave me hope that maybe just maybe, the first test was wrong or maybe I did it too early. I've read that it's advisable to try again a few days after missing your period and with a different brand just to be sure. So, I bought 2 Medic Pregnancy test kits that costs 110 each.

The next day, which is my 2nd day of missing my period. I ran a test again in the morning, this time the second line is much visible but still faint.

This time, I was positive that I'm 50% possibly pregnant. I started chatting with my closests female friends asking if the same thing happened with their tests. They were all positive and cheering that I'm probably pregnant and should wait another day to test.

I literally cried after seeing those 2 lines. When my partner came home, I told him the news and he's indeed happy.

I asked my partner to retrieve the Blue Cross so that I can have a remembrance :)